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Sunday, July 4, 2010 10:56 PM I guess this is the place whereby I could vent everything out. Feel as though I can no longer breathe. So much fresh air is needed. Struggling with life really tires me out. How would you feel when everything is not going the way you wanted and even being misunderstood by people?
I'm always trying so hard for school. No matter how hard and tough, I always have to bite and hang onto it. The stress load, the piles and piles of endless work. I'm glad that Mummy finally sees what i'm going through and suffering. That something gives me the motivation to carry on my poly life. When you don't even have time for yourself, will you still think of meeting up with friends? I doubt anyone will do so. If time allows, who wouldnt want to have a meet up. Yes, people are self centered. They only think and care about themselves, we cant expect everyone to be thoughtful and considerate. But wait a minutes, when the time I need you guys the most where were you all? Is until a particular time, when my life starts to change and back to same pace as you all, you guys appeared once again. Didnt join you guys out for outing doesn mean I dont bother the friendship. I do care, I do bother but you all just judge by what you guys see. Then what the point of explaining?! If you all thinks I'm only spending my time with him then it a big wrong wrong! Lastly, when you thought actually there's someone for you to rely on and realized it was a wishful thinking how sad will you feel? Indeed truth are ugly. But it meant a lot. Realizing now, is not too late. I was just holding onto an empty shell of you, she didnt left your heart I was back because you just wanted me to replace her. Did you even realize, how deep the scar was when you left? Yes, a downturn of my life. But what can I do to change away such pathetic life I have? No one bother to listen to the explanation, no one bother to stand in your shoe and understand your situation. So the only way is just shut up and bite through the tough period. |
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